Bring all of it—You have a seat at the table
“When all of you is there, you will know. When all of you is present, the banquet will begin.”
I love this quote from Richard Rohr’s book “Breathing Under Water”. But here’s the thing that immediately pops up in my heart—“I don’t n on now how to get all of me to be present.” And the fear of missing out, the compulsion to perform and do and earn starts winding up. And then I remember a couple sections of scripture:
Jesus telling the woman, “I don’t condemn you either.” Stop there for a second and imagine you are standing before the divine, completely exposed, unable to hide or hide from any and all of the bullshit. And with compassionate grace in his eyes and voice says, “I don’t condemn you.” What sensations does that cause in your mind? In your heart? In your body?
The second verse I’m reminded of is in the letter of Romans. It says, “He didn’t, and doesn’t, wait for us to get ready. He presented himself for this sacrificial death when we were far too weak and rebellious to do anything to get ourselves ready. But God put his love on the line for us by offering his Son in sacrificial death while we were of no use whatever to him.”
The hardest part is not in the doing, the analyzing, the planning, the habits, the system, the patterns, the shadow work, the soul spelunking as it were. The hardest part is ACCEPTING the invitation AND trusting you belong at the table AS. YOU. ARE.
So, bring it—The excitement, the possessiveness, the pride, the serenity, the passion, the suspicion, the reassurance, the irritation, the acceptance, the affection, the release, the motivation, the anticipation, the kindness, the trust, the worry, the determination, the uncertainty, the panic, the shame, the insecurity, the resentment, the nervousness, the rage, the astonishment, the contentment, the loneliness, the revulsion, the bafflement, the guilt, the hopelessness, the nihilism, the humiliation, the joy, the compassion, the nostalgia, the annoyance, the inspiration, the disdain, the love, the dread, the envy, the gratitude, the amusement, the wonder, the belonging, the infatuation, the disappointment, the bliss, the startled, the sorrow, the melancholy, the longing, the empathy, the despair, the optimism, the frustration, the regret, the contempt, the amazement, the anxiety, the embarrassment, the reverence, the grief.
Bring what you can, as you can, when you can. You have a seat at the table.
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I feel like I have to be someone else to belong—like I’m too much or not enough.
What if I stopped trying to fix myself and just trusted the invitation to show up as I am?
Shame says I don’t belong until I’ve got it all together.
You don’t have to do it all or be it all to belong. Let’s talk about what it means to accept the invitation and reclaim enoughness. Start here or text 760.842.3014 to book a Spiritual Direction session. 💛
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You don’t have to fix yourself to belong. Bring it all—your joy, doubt, fear, and hope. You have a seat. What part of yourself feels hardest to bring to the table? Let’s start there. 💬
